Out of words - 2

:D

Do you know how it feels like when you have overcome one of your worst fears??? Or was it beginner's luck? I am not sure but it went well so I am relieved!!!

Because of my fear of public speaking, I was very terrified today when I had to take a training session for the new joinees in my firm. Its not as if I couldn't have refused, its just that I had to do this for my own sake.

I couldn't eat my lunch well because of that. I felt nauseous. After lunch, I was sitting on my table (yes! on the table), people around me started teasing me. I knew they didn't mean wrong, but I felt that noone understood what I was going through. Noone had even the smallest idea of why I was flummoxed. And so when people started teasing me, my eyes got filled up and since obviously I couldn't create a scene there, I just pretended as if I am concentrating very hard on my screen and thankfully nobody saw them. I left the deck alone when finally AK told me that the more you prepare the more nervous you'd be. He again, understands my plight a bit.

I went for the session. I could not feel my legs. I was actually shivering. My stomach was upside down. Then I took 2 deep breaths, thought of my dad and started it. For 1st 15 minutes my condition was the same. I was all up and down over the multiple files and deck. But soon it all started to come to me on its own. I got into the flow and I never realized when I eased into it. I even lost track of time. And after a while I think even people were chilled out because more than 3/4th asked one or other kind of doubt and there were a lot of faces I could see were atleast visually paying attention. If something else was infact going on in their mind, I couldn't possibly guess, atleast not from their faces.

I think >70% people got more than 90% of what I taught. And I think that's a good score. So I would like to believe that I did well.

Glossophobia - 1, Me - 2 (this session had almost double the people than the earlier one :D)

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Keeping score ;)
ME!!!